When I think of what most people like, I feel an undeniable spike in bile up my pipes
that threatens to dress the room in my uncontrolled vomit.
When I think of what most people like, I enter a parallel world where my earthly eyes
can’t see quite right, and I fear I might fall off the side of this shitty old planet.
Interests are equal from tanning to collecting Nazi memorabilia.
It’s all the same, a way to spend days. A way to forestall creeping thoughts of the grave.
When I think of what most people like, I leave the material realm
and float past a garden of delights that remind me I’m far from perfect myself but perfectly bitter.
When I think of what most people like, I take journey to hell and eat food that rotted on the shelves while intestines cry out in pain and beg, "please, God, forgive me!"
Interests are equal from war-gaming to collegiate goalkeeper.
It’s all the same, a way to spend days. A way to forestall creeping thoughts of the grave.
Interests are equal. It’s all person-to-person and there’s so many people.
Blood-play, or model trains. It's all the same.
Time spent, is time well-spent outside the grave.
The examined life. We examined life to see how it works.
It's magnified and torn apart. We're too close to see it wont fit together again.
Breaths we hold and release, I count them down, each one till they cease.
Obsessing over endings before we can begin.
This life will be the death of me. Your dream of life is a fantasy.
This life will be the death of me. You dream of life, I wish for dreams.
Your lullabies keep me awake. This life is all I can take.
I want to know, not just believe in this life.
Will it be enough for me?
My everything is elsewhere.
This world cannot hate you when it doesn't know you're there.
Only in a memory you appear and always I will miss you more from here.
Alone, these fallacies chip at my bones as I lay awake practicing death.
I want to know, I refuse to believe in this life, this great life.
Will it be enough for me?
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'Split'
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